Im Sorry..

im sorry to myself.

its not what i wanted..

im sorry to her..

i've lost myself..

im sorry to my friends..

ignorance in me..

i hav been thinking why i became like this..

a me which i dun want..

its those emotions which i hav lost..

i shall keep that smile.. =)

its time for myself..

the life i wanted..

in my own world..

with manda..

hmm.. im falling sick soon..

physically and mentally im feeling bad..

i shld hav more empathy and maturity..

i shld change my actions and life in what i do..

i feel that im different from the past..

its due to my environment i guess..

i really dun want to change..

i want my old self.. i want myself back!

i hav to study already.. term test is just next week!

im just kinda lost and worried..

worried cuz im lost..

but i will find my way back! =)

anyways..

dun worry my dear!

im happy to be together with u!

you've brought me memories and laughter that i nv thought i would hav.. =)

this post has nothing to do with my love life! hahas.. =)

its has been long time since i post anything..

hmm.. let mi start with nicholas phan's birthday celebration! =)

went to eat TonyRoma's at city hall suntec city..

firstly, it is a shop known for the ribs..

there's seafood and steak too!

sadly i've got no money..

so i dint order anything to eat.. =(

i could not even afford the loaf of bread lah! =x

anyways.. the food is pretty nice..

i got to taste them thanks to my friends!

i had the "im hungry looks" so they share their food with mi..

THANK YOU!! =) big smiles..

its fun catching up with them..

chatting and cracked jokes.. haha..

we seems oblivious to the surroundings when we laughed so loud!

took some photos together!

anyways.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHANN!! =)

hmm.. so everyone went to take train..

after the celebration..

i went to meet manda!! =)

i wanna spend more time with her..

i dint eat much so i ate at her house.. hahas.. thanks manda! =)

stomach was bad these few days..

so i got a glucose drink made by her mum.. thank you auntie! =)

haha! felt much better after drinking..

guess it really work for mi..

had a talk with manda and auntie..

its really cool! hahas.. =)

its really great and fun spending my day there..

i went home in the afternoon!

Quite awhile since i update my blog..
Hmm.. Many many wonderful things happened!!
Still wanna be indulged in it.. haha.. =x
Shall keep them all in my heart!!
Firstly, wanna talk about the importance of lectures!
i dint go for some lectures thinking they are useless..
But that fine day change my thinking..
i was actually troubled by one of my subjects..
i cant understand a thing about it until i went for lecture..
and i went for it because i wanted to wait for amanda..
thinking that i had time, so my friend, Aqib and i decided to go for it..
Bottom Line: Lectures are Bloody Important!! =x
School School School..
Term tests are approaching.. Projects are killing!!
but im still able to manage them lah!
Things are better now and i can catch my breathe now..
Anyways, i hate OLE..
OLE is a school system which u search for hw and notes so i can download them..
it made mi lost and fed up looking for stuffs! I HATE OLE!! Argghh!!
Manda Manda!!
Met her after my lecture.. =)
then we went to look for dedric and elhannah for dinner together!
went to changi village..
she received a msg from her friend..
he was caught with hand food mouth thing..
so she felt really really sad.. =(
i could feel the direct impact in her..
then i felt sad and concerned too..
the food doesnt taste as nice..
Mood and Feelings do affect our taste and appetite!
Hope her friend can recover asap! =)
After dinner.. we went to changi beach..
Just happened we sat down and talked..
It is these talks that bring us so close together! =)
hmm.. assurance and trust is really important..
Got to meet again! yeahh!
had dinner with her and rent DVD to watch at her house..
It's really great to spend my time with her! =)
Get to meet her more!! Happy! haha! =)

The Beautiful Bride Michelle Chow in the middle.. =)

When things turn too high and gay!! Omg!! haha! =)
But i love u guys.. =)

dedric's vomit!

Just came back from my malaysia trip..

it kinda sucks at first but became better at the end..

start off with the unhappy things 1st..

Firstly, the train ride to malaysia was painful..

its hard to get to sleep there..

its cold and the auto door is not auto..

so the door slided open despite how many times we tried to close it..

really noisy with the door opened..

the cold wind blowing in added to mi and zw sufferings..

im so cold that i shrink myself so that the jacket could fit my body..

there were some minor conflicts in our group..

but glad that they were solved and not taken it to our heart..

e.g where to spend our day,

what transport to take to reach our destination, etc..

and there is a slight miscommunication..

taking taxi is shit lah!

they can ask how much they want..

so we are suppose to bargain the price..

but the down side is we cant speak malay.. omg!

so we got con.. Arghh! Damn taxi drivers!

small amount but i dread it! Damn it..

Malaysia is poorly accessible without TAXI!! *Grumble*

anyways.. we still manage to find our way to the hotel..

everyone was so exhausted and sweaty..

we took a bath then prepared ourselves.. i said we! haha..

okay.. then we were punctual for the wedding..

but it started at 8.30pm instead of 7.30pm..

it's boring waiting but the wedding is so so fun!!

everyone got so high and some got drunk.. haha! so funny yet scary..

some vomit, some did silly stuffs, some just fell asleep..

it was very enjoyable and fun..

everyone drink so much.. first time i drink so much..

luckily im still able to control my actions..

its really rare for us to catch up and be like this..

and i can say its the first time..

what great memories for this outing..

the trip back was smooth..

Home Sweet Home!

8th May, 2008 Thursday!!

Our Special Day!! =)

hmm.. really really had a great time with you!

i felt so so so emotional again..

maybe we dint meet for 3 days and we were so packed this week..

its really hard for us to meet these days..

so im glad we can meet on our 1st month anniversary!! =) haha..

hav been looking forward this day..

cherish our date so much..

its not that smooth at first but it got better.. yeahh!

went to rent movie to watch..

the movie is kinda old school and sucks..

it's due to poor recommendation by the auntie shopkeeper!

we hav learnt nv trust an auntie's opinion for a movie..

its super old school and boring lah!

then i found out i lost my wallet! omg!

i thought i might hav left my wallet at koufu..

so mi and manda went back to koufu..

she prayed for mi and i found my wallet.. thank God!! =)

grateful to the auntie cleaner too!

happily went home to watch you, me, dupree!

dint manage to finish the show..

but i know it will be a great movie..

it became better.. alot better i guess! yupps..

i realised something and got over it..

cause i know who's the best and worth mi waiting and love for..

thank you so much for what u've given mi.. =)

i wanna share my thoughts with u..

i shall express my feelings to u other time..

too shy to say here.. =P

anyways.. today is simple but sweet..

Alrights! Good Nights to you!! =)

Monday and Wednesday was dragonboat training..

these 2 days were really torturing and tough..

though its tough but it really really helps u to build up..

just 2 days i feel a little difference..

1st day was better..

2nd day is much tough due to muscle aches and increase in training..

im really happy and surprised that i went through these 2 days..

i felt the sense of accomplishment!! haha.. =)

i has poor self motivation on the tuesday and on that day..

almost gave up the training..

but i still made it in the end lah!

i've got 4 days to rest..

Its time to go out!!

hmm.. it has been 3 days i dint get to meet amanda..

but tml tml will be our day!

so im meeting her lah! yeahh! haha!! =)

hope things go well.. hehe.. =)

i went for dragon boat orientation..

its really fun..

i really love how they row as a team..

building morale and determination..

its very motivating to do that..

got to row the boat.. super fun!! haha..

but so sad.. nid to pass physical test then can row in the team..

hmm.. rather tough already plus my joint problem..

really hope that i can recover soon lah!

it is such a burden for mi everyday..

i wanna get well!! =)

hmm.. a tv commercial caught my attention..

laksa steamboat!! omg!

i feel like giving it a try..

checked the net and found out its free flow of laksa base..

katong laksa!

its located along the road of telok blangah road..

anyone interested!?

i shall jio my eating kakis.. hahas.. =)

its not buffet i think..

price from $8-20 per person.. depending on ur appettite!

i meeting manda again! yeahh!

Happy Happy!

its gonna be a busy week for us i guess..

gonna spend time fulfillngly.. my precious! =)

Had a special outing with amanda.. =)

because its a group dating..

the other couple is.. yx and reanne! =)

Hav not done it before but its kinda cool..

i know she wanna get along with my friends..

i also wish i can get along with her friends too!!

so so so happy to be able to meet up with her after 4days..

she has been busy with sch stuffs but it's alrights!

its has been long yet so worth waiting for..

i cant describe that feeling when i was with her..

its so special lah! addition to my feelings towards her.. *Shy*

now i understand why my friends tell mi..

they said, "i dun really like to meet so frequently".

but i still wanna see her.. haha!! =P

had dinner at yoshinoya..

went to window-shop awhile because i wanted to look for jeans..

after that we took train home..

there was this moment at the escalator..
its THAT feeling.. my heart just BI PO BI PO!! hahas.. =)
Okay!! anyways.. i just love it!!

slack awhile at Macdonalds!! =)

sent her home before 12..

targeted timing by her daddy! haha..

phew.. i made it in time.. yeahh!

the day was simple yet sweet..

Simple things we do yet so powerful..

Feelings that came which felt so sweet..

Memorable and Lovely Day!! =)

Having Dragon Boat training soon..

Just hope my joints dun ache on these days..

Hmm.. after reading ur blog..

to be honest..

i felt affected but i realised lots of things..

but i know that we hav to pull through this together..

understanding is what i hav to giv u..

and of course many other things as well..

we cant always hav things in our way we like..

sometimes we hav to seek a balance..

there are times that we feel low..

but at times we are feel happy too.. don't u?

but at least for mi, im happy for what i hav now.. =)

dun be mislead by uncertain stuffs and feel stress..

being kept too long in a situation may be suffocating and tiring..

but u just nid someone who will open up the cap..

open up ur heart to pour out ur feelings..

we may not know each other for a long period..

its the first step that is hard..

once u took the 1st step, it will be easier for the next one..

i wont ask for much..

its just ur love and concern in ur heart that are utmost important..

sometimes its the thoughts that counts..

so u dun hav to shield urself when u're with mi.. just let urself out..

i dun wanna be a burden..

i know ur studies is really really important..

u really nid to spent lots of time studying for 'a' level..

my power of language is not strong,

so sometimes i cant really get what u're trying to convey..

my apology..

hope i can get them right..

if i get them wrong, please tell mi..

i realised that i hav to be disciplined and contented..

its just what u believe in and hav faith in it.. =)

I'll always be there for u, and its fair because i am here for u..

There's a sentence that says..

xian ku hou tian..

bitter always come before enjoying happiness..

Im Sorry..

im sorry to myself.

its not what i wanted..

im sorry to her..

i've lost myself..

im sorry to my friends..

ignorance in me..

i hav been thinking why i became like this..

a me which i dun want..

its those emotions which i hav lost..

i shall keep that smile.. =)

its time for myself..

the life i wanted..

in my own world..

with manda..

hmm.. im falling sick soon..

physically and mentally im feeling bad..

i shld hav more empathy and maturity..

i shld change my actions and life in what i do..

i feel that im different from the past..

its due to my environment i guess..

i really dun want to change..

i want my old self.. i want myself back!

i hav to study already.. term test is just next week!

im just kinda lost and worried..

worried cuz im lost..

but i will find my way back! =)

anyways..

dun worry my dear!

im happy to be together with u!

you've brought me memories and laughter that i nv thought i would hav.. =)

this post has nothing to do with my love life! hahas.. =)

its has been long time since i post anything..

hmm.. let mi start with nicholas phan's birthday celebration! =)

went to eat TonyRoma's at city hall suntec city..

firstly, it is a shop known for the ribs..

there's seafood and steak too!

sadly i've got no money..

so i dint order anything to eat.. =(

i could not even afford the loaf of bread lah! =x

anyways.. the food is pretty nice..

i got to taste them thanks to my friends!

i had the "im hungry looks" so they share their food with mi..

THANK YOU!! =) big smiles..

its fun catching up with them..

chatting and cracked jokes.. haha..

we seems oblivious to the surroundings when we laughed so loud!

took some photos together!

anyways.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHANN!! =)

hmm.. so everyone went to take train..

after the celebration..

i went to meet manda!! =)

i wanna spend more time with her..

i dint eat much so i ate at her house.. hahas.. thanks manda! =)

stomach was bad these few days..

so i got a glucose drink made by her mum.. thank you auntie! =)

haha! felt much better after drinking..

guess it really work for mi..

had a talk with manda and auntie..

its really cool! hahas.. =)

its really great and fun spending my day there..

i went home in the afternoon!

Quite awhile since i update my blog..
Hmm.. Many many wonderful things happened!!
Still wanna be indulged in it.. haha.. =x
Shall keep them all in my heart!!
Firstly, wanna talk about the importance of lectures!
i dint go for some lectures thinking they are useless..
But that fine day change my thinking..
i was actually troubled by one of my subjects..
i cant understand a thing about it until i went for lecture..
and i went for it because i wanted to wait for amanda..
thinking that i had time, so my friend, Aqib and i decided to go for it..
Bottom Line: Lectures are Bloody Important!! =x
School School School..
Term tests are approaching.. Projects are killing!!
but im still able to manage them lah!
Things are better now and i can catch my breathe now..
Anyways, i hate OLE..
OLE is a school system which u search for hw and notes so i can download them..
it made mi lost and fed up looking for stuffs! I HATE OLE!! Argghh!!
Manda Manda!!
Met her after my lecture.. =)
then we went to look for dedric and elhannah for dinner together!
went to changi village..
she received a msg from her friend..
he was caught with hand food mouth thing..
so she felt really really sad.. =(
i could feel the direct impact in her..
then i felt sad and concerned too..
the food doesnt taste as nice..
Mood and Feelings do affect our taste and appetite!
Hope her friend can recover asap! =)
After dinner.. we went to changi beach..
Just happened we sat down and talked..
It is these talks that bring us so close together! =)
hmm.. assurance and trust is really important..
Got to meet again! yeahh!
had dinner with her and rent DVD to watch at her house..
It's really great to spend my time with her! =)
Get to meet her more!! Happy! haha! =)

The Beautiful Bride Michelle Chow in the middle.. =)

When things turn too high and gay!! Omg!! haha! =)
But i love u guys.. =)

dedric's vomit!

Just came back from my malaysia trip..

it kinda sucks at first but became better at the end..

start off with the unhappy things 1st..

Firstly, the train ride to malaysia was painful..

its hard to get to sleep there..

its cold and the auto door is not auto..

so the door slided open despite how many times we tried to close it..

really noisy with the door opened..

the cold wind blowing in added to mi and zw sufferings..

im so cold that i shrink myself so that the jacket could fit my body..

there were some minor conflicts in our group..

but glad that they were solved and not taken it to our heart..

e.g where to spend our day,

what transport to take to reach our destination, etc..

and there is a slight miscommunication..

taking taxi is shit lah!

they can ask how much they want..

so we are suppose to bargain the price..

but the down side is we cant speak malay.. omg!

so we got con.. Arghh! Damn taxi drivers!

small amount but i dread it! Damn it..

Malaysia is poorly accessible without TAXI!! *Grumble*

anyways.. we still manage to find our way to the hotel..

everyone was so exhausted and sweaty..

we took a bath then prepared ourselves.. i said we! haha..

okay.. then we were punctual for the wedding..

but it started at 8.30pm instead of 7.30pm..

it's boring waiting but the wedding is so so fun!!

everyone got so high and some got drunk.. haha! so funny yet scary..

some vomit, some did silly stuffs, some just fell asleep..

it was very enjoyable and fun..

everyone drink so much.. first time i drink so much..

luckily im still able to control my actions..

its really rare for us to catch up and be like this..

and i can say its the first time..

what great memories for this outing..

the trip back was smooth..

Home Sweet Home!

8th May, 2008 Thursday!!

Our Special Day!! =)

hmm.. really really had a great time with you!

i felt so so so emotional again..

maybe we dint meet for 3 days and we were so packed this week..

its really hard for us to meet these days..

so im glad we can meet on our 1st month anniversary!! =) haha..

hav been looking forward this day..

cherish our date so much..

its not that smooth at first but it got better.. yeahh!

went to rent movie to watch..

the movie is kinda old school and sucks..

it's due to poor recommendation by the auntie shopkeeper!

we hav learnt nv trust an auntie's opinion for a movie..

its super old school and boring lah!

then i found out i lost my wallet! omg!

i thought i might hav left my wallet at koufu..

so mi and manda went back to koufu..

she prayed for mi and i found my wallet.. thank God!! =)

grateful to the auntie cleaner too!

happily went home to watch you, me, dupree!

dint manage to finish the show..

but i know it will be a great movie..

it became better.. alot better i guess! yupps..

i realised something and got over it..

cause i know who's the best and worth mi waiting and love for..

thank you so much for what u've given mi.. =)

i wanna share my thoughts with u..

i shall express my feelings to u other time..

too shy to say here.. =P

anyways.. today is simple but sweet..

Alrights! Good Nights to you!! =)

Monday and Wednesday was dragonboat training..

these 2 days were really torturing and tough..

though its tough but it really really helps u to build up..

just 2 days i feel a little difference..

1st day was better..

2nd day is much tough due to muscle aches and increase in training..

im really happy and surprised that i went through these 2 days..

i felt the sense of accomplishment!! haha.. =)

i has poor self motivation on the tuesday and on that day..

almost gave up the training..

but i still made it in the end lah!

i've got 4 days to rest..

Its time to go out!!

hmm.. it has been 3 days i dint get to meet amanda..

but tml tml will be our day!

so im meeting her lah! yeahh! haha!! =)

hope things go well.. hehe.. =)

i went for dragon boat orientation..

its really fun..

i really love how they row as a team..

building morale and determination..

its very motivating to do that..

got to row the boat.. super fun!! haha..

but so sad.. nid to pass physical test then can row in the team..

hmm.. rather tough already plus my joint problem..

really hope that i can recover soon lah!

it is such a burden for mi everyday..

i wanna get well!! =)

hmm.. a tv commercial caught my attention..

laksa steamboat!! omg!

i feel like giving it a try..

checked the net and found out its free flow of laksa base..

katong laksa!

its located along the road of telok blangah road..

anyone interested!?

i shall jio my eating kakis.. hahas.. =)

its not buffet i think..

price from $8-20 per person.. depending on ur appettite!

i meeting manda again! yeahh!

Happy Happy!

its gonna be a busy week for us i guess..

gonna spend time fulfillngly.. my precious! =)

Had a special outing with amanda.. =)

because its a group dating..

the other couple is.. yx and reanne! =)

Hav not done it before but its kinda cool..

i know she wanna get along with my friends..

i also wish i can get along with her friends too!!

so so so happy to be able to meet up with her after 4days..

she has been busy with sch stuffs but it's alrights!

its has been long yet so worth waiting for..

i cant describe that feeling when i was with her..

its so special lah! addition to my feelings towards her.. *Shy*

now i understand why my friends tell mi..

they said, "i dun really like to meet so frequently".

but i still wanna see her.. haha!! =P

had dinner at yoshinoya..

went to window-shop awhile because i wanted to look for jeans..

after that we took train home..

there was this moment at the escalator..
its THAT feeling.. my heart just BI PO BI PO!! hahas.. =)
Okay!! anyways.. i just love it!!

slack awhile at Macdonalds!! =)

sent her home before 12..

targeted timing by her daddy! haha..

phew.. i made it in time.. yeahh!

the day was simple yet sweet..

Simple things we do yet so powerful..

Feelings that came which felt so sweet..

Memorable and Lovely Day!! =)

Having Dragon Boat training soon..

Just hope my joints dun ache on these days..

Hmm.. after reading ur blog..

to be honest..

i felt affected but i realised lots of things..

but i know that we hav to pull through this together..

understanding is what i hav to giv u..

and of course many other things as well..

we cant always hav things in our way we like..

sometimes we hav to seek a balance..

there are times that we feel low..

but at times we are feel happy too.. don't u?

but at least for mi, im happy for what i hav now.. =)

dun be mislead by uncertain stuffs and feel stress..

being kept too long in a situation may be suffocating and tiring..

but u just nid someone who will open up the cap..

open up ur heart to pour out ur feelings..

we may not know each other for a long period..

its the first step that is hard..

once u took the 1st step, it will be easier for the next one..

i wont ask for much..

its just ur love and concern in ur heart that are utmost important..

sometimes its the thoughts that counts..

so u dun hav to shield urself when u're with mi.. just let urself out..

i dun wanna be a burden..

i know ur studies is really really important..

u really nid to spent lots of time studying for 'a' level..

my power of language is not strong,

so sometimes i cant really get what u're trying to convey..

my apology..

hope i can get them right..

if i get them wrong, please tell mi..

i realised that i hav to be disciplined and contented..

its just what u believe in and hav faith in it.. =)

I'll always be there for u, and its fair because i am here for u..

There's a sentence that says..

xian ku hou tian..

bitter always come before enjoying happiness..